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Rihanna

I’ve always felt like a bit of a loner. Not that I’m not sociable or that I don’t like people it’s just that I’ve always dealt with things on my own. I never tell people my true feelings because I’m always scared that if I do, they’ll either laugh or just expect me to deal with it on my own. I’m quite happy to do that but because I feel like I have to deal with everything myself, it makes me want to help others. I always feel like I have to give advice and to help people deal with situations within their lives. This makes me emotionally attached to people which never goes down well. I always advise people what they should do and they generally take it on board. But it hurts when I warn or advise someone and they ignore what I say which then leads them to get hurt. I feel responsible like I should have done more. Or that I should have advised them better. Really it’s their own fault, but I feel responsible. This is why I never get emotionally involved with people. I can easily become friends with someone but I can become enemies with them just as easy. You can ask pretty much anyone that actually knows me. This is why I’m always the “bitch” because I turn on people, show little emotion and also bitch a lot but I have valid reasons for doing that. I don’t mind being called a bitch because of how I am because I know why I’m like this. I know why I get emotionally attached and I know that I always deal with things myself. I don’t want people to know the complete ins and outs of my whole entire life. All the things that have happened in the past and made me the person I am today, I’m thankful for because I know that whatever shit someone can throw at me, I’ll be able to be like “Yeah, throw it harder next time bitch”. I make myself oblivious to what people try to do to me to make me feel like shit to fulfill their egos. I do it because I know that by being oblivious. I remove their satisfaction from the comments that they make towards me. And I know that they can’t hurt me. No one can. I have dealt with some horrible things and a few abusive comments aren’t going to make me feel like shit. Never.